being a christian who struggles with mental health, I have always felt as though there was a certain stigma surrounding the idea of a person of faith in an all-powerful, healing God taking a medication for anxiety + panic attacks.
The main problem with anxiety is that you get completely stuck in your head – like, super stuck. You feel like a broken record and no matter how hard you try to talk it out or talk yourself down, you can feel yourself continue to spiral to the point of a physical and mental breakdown.
This is a new, recurring segment I want to start up so I can be better about setting goals, being held accountable by putting them out there for others to see, and assessing how those goals went and how I can modify them in the following months!
Starting tomorrow, we can finally see sight of spring! After the south’s sweltering, never-ending summers, we come to appreciate winter – but there’s something about being so close to warm, sunny weather that gets me so excited. The sunscreen is so close I can already smell it!
Another aspect of spring I’ve come to love as an adult is spring. cleaning. Lame, I know. Winter is so good for curling up in bed to watch a movie or read a book, but with the warmer weather comes a bustle that makes us realize just how sloppy we became during our cold weather-induced laze.
Today is National Love Your Pet Day! And for any of you that follow me on social media, you know I treat every day like it’s Love Your Pet Day. My little Arlyn Wyatt (who’s not so little anymore!) has changed my life for the better in ways that I didn’t think he would. When I first got him (read that story here) of course a lot of me thought “oh it’d just be so much fun to have my own dog!” But I didn’t anticipate just how much joy + life he would bring into my life.
Even the most happy-go-lucky people run into bad days – not that I’m saying that’s particularly me, because Lord knows I definitely hit my wit’s end. My point being, we all experience some not so desirable days/situations, and we all search for ways to alleviate the frustration. Everyone has different ways they like to destress, but here’s generally how I cope with my less than perfect days.
I’m a firm believer in the power that community holds. It might seem like sure a simple concept, but it’s true that the stresses and hurt we feel when we’re plugged into a solid, like-minded group of people is significantly less than when we feel isolated and alone.
If you’ve been keeping up with me at all then you’re no stranger to the fact that I was caught between a rock and a hard place this summer when my anxiety began to feel like too much to bear and made it hard to get out of bed. I experienced a lot of stressors within the course of 2 weeks – I lost a lot I didn’t anticipate losing. It came with a lot of damaged self-esteem, rejection, abandonment, and a lot of questioning if I’d ever be good enough. I know – it sounds pretty pathetic; but that’s the point the events I had gone through in such a short amount of time this past summer led me to. It didn’t really matter how many times I told myself “it has nothing to do with you,” or “this doesn’t define you,” I still managed to find a way to make myself feel as if surely there was something I could have done to make things different. That’s how the Enemy works; he has such a way of being able to twist our thoughts that even when we know things are out of our control, he can still find a way to be in the back of our mind saying “you weren’t good enough – and maybe you never will be.”