I’m having such a hard time wrapping my head around the fact that another year has come and gone. I can’t tell if the time is passing faster because I’m actually having that much fun or if it’s simply because I’m getting older. But I really do love this time of year because I love to reflect on what the Lord has done in the past year – I love reminiscing in the good times, and I appreciate the lessons I learned in the hard times. Similarly, I love getting to look ahead knowing that everything that happened this year has paved the way for what’s going to happen in 2019 and that it’s molded me into who I want – and was designed – to be.
For me, 2017 was a year of self-discovery. I was coming out of college, trying to figure out how to be an adult, leaving comfort zones and having no clue what to expect. I can’t say I really know what to expect even still, but at least I don’t feel as unbalanced as I once did lol
I see 2018 as a year of solidification. The woman I discovered in 2017 started to truly emerge and I refused to settle for “good enough.” When you start to see yourself for who you are, what you want, and where you want to be, you start to respect yourself too much to settle for less than what you know you deserve. I made hard decisions and stood up for myself in the face of difficulties. I challenged myself to stop thinking about “what if I fall,” and start thinking “but what if you fly?” I do the things that scare me for the sake of stretching myself into the woman I still have yet to become. There were so many times this year I can look back and be proud of myself; and there were other times I felt weak + burdened by life, but I was made strong in the presence of God.
I also saw 2018 be a year that the enemy tried to tear strong people down. I say this not just in reference to myself, but after standing by friends through the ups and downs of their lives this year. I mourned with those who grieved. I felt heartache for the broken hearted, for those struggling with broken families and broken relationships. I prayed for those struggling with their mental health crying for a way out. 2018 has solidified in my mind that the enemy attacks the ones he’s most scared of. He makes some of the lowest blows that he can and knocks the wind out of us long enough to make us wonder if we’ll ever recover. But what the enemy uses to try and break us is exactly what God is going to use to reshape us. In the midst of pain it doesn’t really feel that way, but my prayer for everyone going into 2019 is that you find strength. If this past year felt like nothing but blow after blow, if you feel like you’re so battered and bruised by what the enemy tried to throw at you, know that there is healing and that there is hope for the joy that’s coming because one day, you will be able to look back on where you are today and see just how far you’ve come.
My hope for 2019 is that it’ll be a year of breaking barriers. There is so much growth when we move outside our comfort zones, and I don’t want to simply feel content with who or where I am – I want to build a woman + a life I love. Here are some of my personal dreams + goals for 2019:
- Sitting really is the new smoking. 2019 is going to be the year I take back control of my health after letting my desk job take a toll on it for so long. I’ve finally established a good routine with the gym (post-hip injury) so I’m excited to only expand on it in the new year, and pair it with my 30 Days to Healthy Living program which I hope to do more consistently than I did this past year. Coming in the new year I’ll be starting a new “wellness check” series that will be paired with the habit trackers. My vision for these posts is not 100% clear and will likely take some trial + error, but all I know is that I want to integrate my personal health journey into the blog a little more than I have in previous years.
- I’m really excited to see where my Arbonne business goes. It’s easily been one of the best decisions of my life because I know there would have been numerous financial situations I wouldn’t have been able to get out of if it wasn’t for the additional support it provided. I’m already planning to go to Las Vegas in May for our Global Training Conference, and I’m hoping to earn the trip to Punta Cana in October – luckily this business aids my desire to travel more! And I’m aiming to earn two promotions this year, not only to live a life of more financial freedom, but so I can afford to chase other goals – keep reading!
- God has finally laid grad school on my heart. I’m excited to start taking steps to pursue my masters degree in sport + exercise nutrition! I’m excited, but also nervous since I’ve been out of school for over a year and a half, and even longer by the time it becomes a reality. But between the earnings I make with Arbonne and the tuition benefits I receive by working for OU, I’m hoping that come summer I’ll be able to take the classes I need to apply for my program and start the application process. I have a million doubts about it running through my mind at any given time, but I can’t tell you how excited I am that after so long of thinking that I couldn’t, that I can.
I have such big hopes for 2019, not just for me, but for everyone. I think 2018 was a year of tests + trials, but I firmly believe everything comes together to build us into the people we’re meant to become. In 2019 I hope we hold our heads high, keeping our eyes focused on the Love that’s made to keep us going. In 2019 I hope we take action to keep God in the center of our lives, in the good, bad, and the ugly. In 2019 I hope we live life to the fullest without compromise, without settling. This life is too short to let ourselves be held back from our dreams + our God-given purpose, to fall captive to the lies that try to tell us we can’t.
Praying for safe + fun new year celebrations for everyone! Go into the year with big hopes and big dreams and hold onto them!