The main problem with anxiety is that you get completely stuck in your head – like, super stuck. You feel like a broken record and no matter how hard you try to talk it out or talk yourself down, you can feel yourself continue to spiral to the point of a physical and mental breakdown.
I’m not here to rant about what anxiety is, though (you can always read my post here if you want to get more insight!) The truth is, blogging became the release I never knew I needed. I was a very intermittent blogger when I first started and I targeted most of my posts towards physical health. It wasn’t until I rewrote my post “The Anxious Truth” that I realized just how powerful of an outlet blogging could be – and that’s when The Southern Sooner started to flourish.
Not only has it given me the opportunity to talk about my anxiety, but it’s allowed me to help others know they’re not alone, which in turn allows me to know that I’m not alone. Not only do I get to write (type) out how I feel, but when I do so, it has the ability to help others.
But it wasn’t easy for me to do initially. That post was written during a time when I felt like I was being kicked while I was already down – on top of the anxiety I was already experiencing, I was terrified to share the post because I didn’t know if the response would be more negative or more positive. It truthfully took a lot of courage to kick my anxiety straight in the face by hitting the share button.
And then that post exploded. People shared so much love and appreciation for that post, which made me feel so good – for a little while, I forgot I was even upset because I was flooded with such kind words. To this day, “The Anxious Truth” is one of my top posts in terms of views.
Even when I’m not talking about anxiety specifically, blogging has still become a good outlet for it. For someone who’s constantly nervous about what people will think about me, every time I publish a post, I have to tell my anxiety who’s boss and say “not everyone will like this post, but some people will – and even if they don’t, I do.” Blogging has become about standing up for myself, against myself.
I have to remind myself every time I publish a post, share on Instagram, Facebook, Twitter… that while I do blog for an audience, first and foremost I blog for myself. Why? Because it’s fun. It’s a form of expression. It’s a journal. It’s my voice. And through it all, I have to remember yes, you are going to annoy some people with your posts. You can’t please everyone, and you’re not going to be everyone’s cup of tea. Each day I have to remind myself of that – and furthermore, I have to remind myself that it’s okay. That’s always been a challenge for me, trying to be okay with knowing people aren’t interested in what I have to say or do, but I live by the phrase “you could be the juiciest peach, but there’s still going to be someone who doesn’t like peaches.”
So, the moral of this post is that blogging has helped me learn how to do something for myself simply because I enjoy it. I’ve realized that when you do something you’re passionate about for yourself, others will follow. Whether you’re blogging about fashion, makeup, health, books, travel, life… whatever it is, if it allows you to express yourself and get some of your thoughts out of your mind helps you kick aside some of your insecurities, own it. Go for it. Blogging might be a remedy for you just like it was for me.
But I hope that you all had a fantastic weekend! Mine was certainly packed, especially with having Soonerthon all day on Saturday, but it was so worth it because we raised OVER A MILLION DOLLARS for the Children’s Miracle Network Hospital here in OKC. It feels so good to know that the sweet miracle children on Oklahoma are able to receive the care they need because of such humbling events like Soonerthon – and I feel so blessed to have the opportunity to be a part of something that’s bigger than myself. It’s so inspiring to know that those kiddos are going to grow up to have such powerful testimonies because of the financial opportunities that Soonerthon provides in terms of research + treatment. Other than that, life feels so crazy right now – in a good way, for the most part. I’ve been buzzing around from one thing to the next and I’m always thinking and planning for something. BUT, I’m not complaining. I consider myself blessed to have so many friends to spend time with and opportunities to look forward to!